‘Scared’ vs ‘prepared’
Since Shabbat, I haven’t been feeling too hot.
I highly recommend you go back and read THIS post, from December 2021, when I first started writing about ‘Acute Radiation Syndrome’.
This next snippet kinda covers what I’ve been experiencing the last few days:
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Here are the main symptoms to look out for, listed:
- Headaches / migraines
- Dizziness
- Vertigo
- Disrupted sleep – i.e. waking up for no obvious reason; and / or finding it hard to get to sleep, for no obvious reason
- Fatigue
- Nausea
- Heart palpitations
- Memory loss / head fog
- Tinnitus – a buzzing or ringing in the ears
- Skin rashes
- Muscle and joint pain – for no obvious reason
- Leg and foot pain
- Tingling
- Irritability
- Numbness
- Nosebleeds
- Low-level anxiety and feeling ‘stressed-out’ for no reason
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I’ve had about seven of the things on this list, for the last few days – coinciding with all the ‘magnetic rain’ and chem trail spraying going on all over Israel.
If you go to the WayBack Machine link here:
http://web.archive.org/web/20170811082213/http://www.nuclmed.gr/magazine/eng/jan13/60.pdf
You can download a short, fairly easy to read PDF explaining the difference between ‘Acute’ and ‘Chronic’ Radiation Syndrome.
Again, I brought a huge amount of info, including some possible ‘solutions’ and coping strategies, in THIS POST.
Go and take a look, as this post is just touching on a few things briefly, like this:
Here’s the description of the first symptoms of ARS.
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I think I’ve been having these ‘first symptoms’ of radiation poisoning the last few days, again.
Some of the people in my house have also been experiencing some ‘weird’ things going on, the last couple of weeks, too, that fit the description of ARS.
The question I’m wondering about is: how many other people out there are also experiencing at least some of the symptoms on this list?
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Unless you just fell off the moon and landed on planet earth, by now, it should be obvious that our own governments and military are literally trying to kill us.
That’s just how it is, that’s the reality we live in.
Maybe, this was always the reality we lived in, just nobody realised it with quite so much clarity before our day and age.
Point is – there are a lot of things going on that can easily cause a lot of us to feel very scared and anxious about the future.
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Yesterday morning, I had another bout of that ‘anxiety’ myself, so I spent half an hour dancing and clapping, while talking to God about what was scaring me – and it really, really helped.
This is my go-to playlist of Rabbenu dance songs, half an hour long:
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If you didn’t try it already, it’s highly recommended.
Point is, there IS a lot of stuff coming down the pipe, and fear is one very common reaction to that.
But if we get stuck in the fear, that is really, really unhelpful and damaging, on so many levels.
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In that OTHER POST, I listed a whole bunch of things that may be useful, when it comes to trying to deal with the fall out (pun intended….) of ARS.
For example, I dusted off my salt lamp again the last week, which made a noticeable difference to my ‘felt stress’.
I’ve stuck tons of lentils on my fingers.
I’ve upped my intake of fermented food and drinks.
I’ve got my Epsom Salts ready for another bath…
It’s probably all helping, as these things go.
But the biggest ‘help’ is the knowledge that:
a) God is running the world, and whatever is going on, it’s going to have a positive ending, even if that ‘positive ending’ doesn’t fit my expectation of what a ‘positive ending’ should look like.
And
b) I’m sitting in the circle of the Tzaddik HaDor – the only person who the demons are actually scared of.
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So, I’m trying to stay ‘aware’ of what’s going on, as much as that is useful, without overwhelming me, my family – or you, dear reader – with too much unmitigated ‘fear porn’, and pointless speculation about ‘what is coming next’.
The Rav told us clearly, he needs to get to Uman this Rosh Hashana to avoid something very horrible happening to humanity.
He’s asked us to say a Tikkun Haklali every day, with that in mind.
That’s our ‘job’ right now, that’s our ‘mission’, plus whatever other ongoing daily teshuva, prayer and spiritual work we need to be doing anyway.
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‘Scared’ means we get ill, anxious, stressed and very pessimistic about the future, so we stop living life in the here and now.
It’s totally what the yetzer wants.
‘Prepared’ means we acknowledge our fears, anxieties and worries, we don’t run away from them – but then we take it all back to God, we take whatever ‘practical’ actions we can to try to mitigate things (especially, on the teshuva, prayer and emuna front) – but then, we get on with our lives and carry on doing the things that bring us joy.
Yesterday, I stuck another six plants in the patch of earth that’s called ‘the garden’ next to the house I rent in Jerusalem.
Sitting out there, watching them grow – it makes me so happy.
Even if the sky is whited-out from GO nanoparticles and the rain gives everyone asthma….
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So, don’t be ‘scared’ about what is coming next, but do use your anxiety and fear to spark off some real teshuva and heartfelt prayer.
Follow Rabbenu’s advice to ‘dance and clap’ to sweeten the harsh judgements.
And join, or remain inside, the Tzaddik’s ‘circle’.
Otherwise -move forward, and live your life as happily as you can.
We aren’t in control here.
But that’s always been the case.
And eventually, all this turns around for the best.
The key is not to give ourselves heart attacks and strokes from over-worrying before we get to that stage.
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Feeling it in our family in Jerusalem the last few days. This is supposedly happening too to the Schumann Resonance – https://www.heartmath.org/gci/gcms/live-data/gcms-magnetometer/. https://interestingengineering.com/science/what-is-the-schumann-resonance
Since I did a small pidyon, I started to feel better again, but still not great.
BH, this is going to ‘lift’ soon.
Good idea, will follow your lead.
In California, it’s been mostly cloudy and overcast for the past two/three weeks. I don’t know if they do GO cloud seeding.
Feeling so fatigued and weak since we got stuck in the rain in Yerushalayim. Feeling a little silly about connecting it to the rain though. What’s this about lentils? Is this sujok?
yes, it’s sujok.
I stick a line of whole red lentils to the inside of one finger, all down the length in the centre of the finger, to follow the path of the ‘vagus nerve’ in the body.
It’s my go-to trick for energetic overwhelm, and it nearly always works.
BTW – that ‘rain’ seemed to be a liquified dump of chemicals, including a lot of graphene oxide…
It wasn’t ‘normal’ rain.
Same here in emek hefer…headaches dizziness….and my sons complain of muscle aches and tiredness….and weather…they don’t broadcast it….everytime we have rain, like early this morning….on the charts they have full sun….time after time the same story lately….only this morning it came without the weird thundering…